Secret

I have a secret. It is hidden so deep down that no one ever guesses that it is there. Not even my best friend knows about it because I have never told anyone about it especially him. What would he do? What would he think? How would he reply? I will probably never tell him. I couldn't handle it if it ruined our friendship. Besides he doesn't look at me that way. I am just one of the guys and nothing more. Oh, how wonderful it would be if he liked me but I know he never would. I am too plain and too much of a tomboy while he likes dainty, girly-girls. I can't hide it anymore. Maybe I should just telll him but I am so scared. It could be the beginning of something beautiful or the ending of the best friendship I have ever had. He would be the best boyfriend in the world. But how do I tell him? I can't tell him, he will just laugh. This is hopeless. No way would I be good enough for him. Do I tell him or not? It is an impossible question. Maybe I should wait for him to make a move. No that wouldn't work he is too shy. Even if he liked me he wouldn't say it. OK I'm going to tell him. I can't keep tourturing myself over it.